https://bhimsan.com/ Writer, mother, truth-teller. Reflections on mental health, spirituality and empowerment. en-us Wed, 22 Apr 2026 06:44:58 +0000 https://bhimsan.com/posts/eve-of-eve/ https://bhimsan.com/posts/eve-of-eve/ Fri, 30 Dec 2022 00:00:00 +0000 I ask myself, would I change how I spent the past year? Would I maybe go back to work or simply prioritize myself more? Would I spend more time on my physical health and my appearance? My answer is no... Journal Life Lessons Parenting https://bhimsan.com/posts/a-letter-to-my-dad/ https://bhimsan.com/posts/a-letter-to-my-dad/ Wed, 25 May 2022 00:00:00 +0000 Today, 25 May 2022, my dad Kinny Naidoo would have celebrated his 60th birthday. Sadly he only lived to celebrate 36 of these special days and I was only able to share 9 of these with him. Most of my family and close fri... https://bhimsan.com/posts/the-great-leveller-the-hospital-gown/ https://bhimsan.com/posts/the-great-leveller-the-hospital-gown/ Sat, 23 Apr 2022 00:00:00 +0000 For some reason I felt like the moment you slip it on, there's a fragility and vulnerability that nobody can escape from... Journal Life Lessons https://bhimsan.com/posts/farewell-ayah-1931-2021/ https://bhimsan.com/posts/farewell-ayah-1931-2021/ Tue, 27 Jul 2021 00:00:00 +0000 On 1 July 2021, my last living grandparent passed away. She would have turned 90 on 14 July. Ayah was a huge part of my life and it was a great honour to be asked to speak at her funeral on behalf of our family. Here is ... https://bhimsan.com/posts/sars-cov-2-positive/ https://bhimsan.com/posts/sars-cov-2-positive/ Tue, 04 May 2021 00:00:00 +0000 Just the uncertainty and unpredictability of it will send you into a spiral of nerves. I've spent nights awake just afraid that at any time I could start having difficulty breathing, wondering what that would feel like a... Journal Life Lessons Parenting https://bhimsan.com/posts/due-date/ https://bhimsan.com/posts/due-date/ Fri, 16 Apr 2021 00:00:00 +0000 Today, 25 September was my estimated delivery date. The countdown timer we set up on our devices officially says 00:00:00 or I'm assuming it does since I haven't really bothered to check. I've been rather busy with the l... Journal Pregnancy https://bhimsan.com/posts/an-end-before-the-beginning/ https://bhimsan.com/posts/an-end-before-the-beginning/ Sun, 13 Sep 2020 00:00:00 +0000 I am determined to still put all the excitement and positivity at the forefront and you will be born in love, joy and peace!... Journal Life Lessons Parenting Pregnancy https://bhimsan.com/posts/a-new-season/ https://bhimsan.com/posts/a-new-season/ Tue, 01 Sep 2020 00:00:00 +0000 It is actually the first venture that I have been able to follow through with in a long time and I am certain that it's because this baby is inspiring me and creating a sense of urgency to start living the life I have be... Journal Parenting Pregnancy https://bhimsan.com/posts/little-woman/ https://bhimsan.com/posts/little-woman/ Thu, 13 Aug 2020 00:00:00 +0000 there is nothing so pointless in the life of a woman than despising or disliking other women. In fact it is a great disservice to one’s self in the long run... Life Lessons Parenting Women https://bhimsan.com/posts/a-day-in-the-life-lockdown-edition/ https://bhimsan.com/posts/a-day-in-the-life-lockdown-edition/ Thu, 30 Jul 2020 00:00:00 +0000 I wanted to write about my daily routine for the past two weeks and probably the rest of this pregnancy... Journal Pregnancy https://bhimsan.com/posts/the-start-of-something-new/ https://bhimsan.com/posts/the-start-of-something-new/ Mon, 20 Jul 2020 00:00:00 +0000 Tonight I'm thinking about what I should be doing next. I feel like we've prepared well enough for the baby's arrival and even though there's some uncertainty around the actual d-day (Covid is rampant with SA now 5th in ... Career Journal Life Lessons https://bhimsan.com/posts/filling-in-the-blanks/ https://bhimsan.com/posts/filling-in-the-blanks/ Thu, 02 Jul 2020 00:00:00 +0000 I realise this blog has pretty much become a pregnancy diary but hey, this is a nine month deal and it's given me lots more time to write so it is what it is.The past few nights have been really challenging. I am startin... Journal Pregnancy https://bhimsan.com/posts/delivery-decision-fatigue/ https://bhimsan.com/posts/delivery-decision-fatigue/ Fri, 19 Jun 2020 00:00:00 +0000 "decision fatigue refers to the deteriorating quality of decisions made by an individual after a long session of decision making. It is now understood as one of the causes of irrational trade-off... Journal Pregnancy https://bhimsan.com/posts/great-ish-expectations/ https://bhimsan.com/posts/great-ish-expectations/ Sat, 30 May 2020 00:00:00 +0000 I remember many times during my twenties, standing in front of the bedroom mirror after a sizeable dinner, cradling my food bump and trying to picture what it would actually be like to be pregnant. I always imagined... Journal Pregnancy https://bhimsan.com/posts/a-daughter/ https://bhimsan.com/posts/a-daughter/ Mon, 18 May 2020 00:00:00 +0000 On 28 April we had our first gynae appointment since the 5 week scan we did before leaving to NZ. This one was especially anticipated because we were going to be able to find out the baby's gender.We had to get screened ... Journal Pregnancy https://bhimsan.com/posts/pregnant-1-2/ https://bhimsan.com/posts/pregnant-1-2/ Sat, 18 Apr 2020 00:00:00 +0000 18 Jan 2020This morning around 9am-ish while Ransley was still asleep I emptied my full bladder onto the last Clearblue digital pregnancy test I had in my cupboard. I must have been through at least 7 "Not preg... Journal Pregnancy https://bhimsan.com/posts/adapt-or-die/ https://bhimsan.com/posts/adapt-or-die/ Sat, 18 Apr 2020 00:00:00 +0000 So much has happened since my last post, and so much for keeping this "journal" up to date. To summarize, I am now 16 weeks pregnant, there are in excess of 1.5mil people around the world infected with Coronavirus (Covid... Journal Life Lessons https://bhimsan.com/posts/quiet-like-home/ https://bhimsan.com/posts/quiet-like-home/ Fri, 15 Nov 2019 00:00:00 +0000 I celebrated my 16th birthday in Mumbai, India. It was 2005, a month after the tragic Tsunami hit South East Asia and it was my first international trip. The trip was 5 weeks long, starting in Sri Lanka, then on to Mumba... https://bhimsan.com/posts/i-deserve-a-seat-at-the-table/ https://bhimsan.com/posts/i-deserve-a-seat-at-the-table/ Sun, 27 Oct 2019 00:00:00 +0000 But here I am today, sitting in a lovely cafe, having a delicious brunch on the other side of the world and as the place fills up and people start queueing at the door, I feel that familiar, annoying, sinking feeling... Journal Life Lessons https://bhimsan.com/posts/creepy-crawlies-and-a-creepy-cat/ https://bhimsan.com/posts/creepy-crawlies-and-a-creepy-cat/ Sat, 03 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000 I arrived in Auckland, New Zealand just after midnight in early February 2019. It was unexpectedly humid that night. My body was exhausted from 22 hours of travelling but the jet lag was already kicking in and I felt wid... Journal Travel